Something to Ask God About

Yesterday evening, I was informed that my uncle, a man in his 40's, has been rushed to the hospital. My mother and aunt (his sisters) were the ones who brought him there last night. This morning, I received a text message from my cousin that my uncle had bruises over his body, and the cause of the emergency was a stroke. We don't know how severe it was, but nevertheless, it sounded serious, though I wasn't surprised that he sustained bruises and I speculated it was self-inflicted, as he usually does.

However just around now (9:00PM), my cousin sent me a text message that my uncle is in 20-80 chance. That put me in a dilemma - I had been praying for my uncle since yesterday, for his health, according to God's will.

He has lived a painful life these past days, after barely surviving a previous stroke that impaired his movements and speech. He has been dependent on the aid from his siblings since then. Although he is capable of recovering, he didn't take the opportunities, and he remained impaired. I think, if he had just believed in the good, he could have been better...

But now it comes to a decision - my aunts and mother have signed a waiver to stop the medications on him, for some valid reasons, I suppose. And my hope in his health is waning. I believe in miracles, but should we hope for one, knowing that there is a big chance of non-survival?

Although I hope for the win or the best, I have a tendency to be pessimistic in times of slim chances. I always look at the negative side of things when faced with chance. A classic example is the news on my uncle. I hope for his healing, but most of my mind says, it would not happen. And so this is something I tell and ask God: I KNOW THAT YOU WOULD GIVE WHAT IS BEST FOR US. BUT WHAT REALLY IS YOUR PLAN?

Such questions hinder our life when we think too much. It seems that when these things happen, we doubt the existence of God, and if gone too far, we doubt the goodness of the world. We would see that life is unfair... But there is a saying that, "Life is a box of chocolates," and you wouldn't know what you would get. Others say that "Life is a ball, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down". Looking in the Christian point of view, when we ask for something from God and we don't get what we want, don't blame Him. He does not ignore us, neither does He say NO. Instead, he says, IN DUE TIME, I'LL GIVE IT, or SOMETHING'S BETTER'S IN STORE FOR YOU.

Now I don't know what's GOD's big plan... He would might just live a more miserable life than before if he survives. Only God knows what would happen next...